for the first time in many months… i neva wished someone happy anniversary on the 29th…

though i may have hardened my heart a teeny weeny bit…

it juz pains my heart everytime the 29th pass…

i have a split personality. one part of me misses him so much and every little details makes me think of him…

like when i went to kfc for dinner, i remembered him always putting chilli in his whipped potato and me teasing him abt it..

or when i went iceskating and was making plans abt blading wiv my clique… i tot of how me and him always were suppose to blade together and neva actually did..

and yet, another part of me hates him so. how i block him and reallie hate him so. how i feel glad he aint in my life anymore for there are so many faults of him which i hate so much.

how we dun match long term and everything.

de start of de 3rd week.

5 weeks to go.

i wonder whether i will turn out like summer from oc. but he will neva be a seth.

someone once said he thinks i remind him of brie from desperate housewives… i wonder how true it is…

i guess de onlie time when i knoe that i have truly let go, is when i stop relating things to him.