1991 – 12/04/2008, 6.30am
Mum said she nearly breathed her last yesterday but she still held on strong to wait for me. She was so skinny and she could hardly walk. Usually when we took pics, she would close her eyes but yesterday when we took this pic (and yes, my eyes are swollen from crying), she did not even have the strength to close her eyes.
I am sorry that I wasn’t there these two weeks. I should have been.
My mum and I had slept in the living room with her between us. I kept waking up to check on her. She breathed her last this morning when I was asleep. When my mum woke me up, I couldn’t believe that she was gone just a minute ago. Her body was still warm, her eyes were still open and she looked the way she always had. I hugged her and refused to let her go. She had always been there. Throughout my growing up years, since I went to Primary school till now when I’m in Uni.
She had a good life. Bus had a very strong willpower. She once fell from our flat, 6 storeys high when I was in Primary school and she survived the fall. I think that she kept fighting to stay away from the light to see me once last time. I always thought she would be there when I get married and have my own kids. And my kids would play with her and snuggle with her.
I grew up with her. She has been with us since I was 7. She would cuddle on top of my chest and snuggle with me. I regret leaving. I really should have been with her.
Bus (pronounced bush), I love you and I’ll always will. You have been the best pet ever. I’m so sorry that I wasn’t there.
Kabus, my love, my companion, my beloved pet, I’ll remember you forever.