yes she is.
i had intended to stay away for a longer period of time, a month at least, or even 2 or 3.
why was i away? friends asked/emailed/sms-ed. i didn’t really had the answer to it.
i was battling many emotions in myself and i didn’t know how to handle them and i didnt wanted to throw it out to anyone or blog for that matter.
the feeling of betrayal, hurt, suspicion, resentment, unworthy, feeling stupid, that was how i felt and yes, i nearly walked away from a relationship. i’m feeling really tired about everything and perhaps making a clean break would be better.
i have calmed down (somewhat) but i guess i still need my outlet to vent. i can’t seem to really talk about it in real life, be it face to face, msn or calls, but thru writing, it seriously feels better.
my very own theraphy.
i have been considering making changes to my life, be it love, career, education and all. drastic changes. and these decisions will affect everything i have now.
i’ll need time to think, and hopefully a little bit more luck. wish me luck, hopefully i’ll have a makeover on my life. and hopefully i’ll have the answer by january 2007.
sometimes what you have, is not what you want ain’t it? sigh. it’s gonna be a bit more emotional here (not that it has never been with emo me).
bitchy and emo posts coming soon. you have been warned!
Welcome back ah :D!
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glad to see you back! 🙂
been going thru some similar emotional tussle recently, mainly coz of my job and personal feelings. felt like u, couldn’t write it down, much as i wanted to, though inside me, my heart seemed to be bursting soon.
yeah, time will help u decide what you want soon!
best of luck to you!
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thanks for ur concern babe! tt’s real sweet of u! tk care and best of luck to u. *hugz*
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welcome back to the “reel” life.. Hope everything will turn out alright for you 🙂
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not sure exactly what happen, but whatever it is just hang on! you will do great! really nice to see you and your friends again. Stay happy!
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glad to see you back.
sometimes, as we grow, we move on faster than the people around us. and that is when you look back and decide ‘hey maybe i need something new to engage me.’
it happens. so take your time and make the right choices. all the best.
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good luck babe! *hugs*
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oh well…my blog’s also where i vent my frustrations n what nots…there’s nowhere else to vent abt these issue..so hello blog!
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