yes she is.
i had intended to stay away for a longer period of time, a month at least, or even 2 or 3.
why was i away? friends asked/emailed/sms-ed. i didn’t really had the answer to it.
i was battling many emotions in myself and i didn’t know how to handle them and i didnt wanted to throw it out to anyone or blog for that matter.
the feeling of betrayal, hurt, suspicion, resentment, unworthy, feeling stupid, that was how i felt and yes, i nearly walked away from a relationship. i’m feeling really tired about everything and perhaps making a clean break would be better.
i have calmed down (somewhat) but i guess i still need my outlet to vent. i can’t seem to really talk about it in real life, be it face to face, msn or calls, but thru writing, it seriously feels better.
my very own theraphy.
i have been considering making changes to my life, be it love, career, education and all. drastic changes. and these decisions will affect everything i have now.
i’ll need time to think, and hopefullyÂ a little bit more luck. wish me luck, hopefully i’ll have a makeover on my life. and hopefully i’ll have the answer by january 2007.
sometimes what you have, is not what you want ain’t it? sigh. it’s gonna be a bit more emotional here (not that it has never been with emo me).
bitchy and emo posts coming soon. you have been warned!