Yearly Archives: 2006


thebeanmaster had to play at the artshouse today and he was lugging his electric bass around while out with me. look how big and tall it is! and yes, look how short i am. it was so bloody irritating. everyone was avoiding him and his stuff that they kept banging into me. BAH!

another one of my word teeshirts. this one says 'dont fall for my sweet talk'. LOL! and oh yes, i absolutely enjoyed 'night at the museum'. go watch! you'll be laughing away!


i've been having the stress migraine since evening. its an old condition of mine. pills dont work, nothing works till the stress is over. the pain is so intense that i feel like banging my head at the wall. don't worry i wont. it doesnt work.

things at home aint pleasant right now. i hate being at home sometimes. i tell myself to persevere but i wonder how long can i take it. it has been years now.

some people go on and on about their sad lot in life. i will not be one of them. i don't believe in accepting my fate. i believe in changing it. to me, there will always be people worse off than yourself and if they are not complaining, who are we to complain? give me time and things will change. i promise you that. only me myself can change things. complaining will not change anything. actions speaks louder than words. no one can help yourself but you.

karma baby. i will make sure everyone gets what they deserve.

im trying to study at home but the noise is getting to me, it really doesnt help that im having a migraine. i try to stop the tears but yet they fall. i must continue to save.

it doesnt help that im feeling physically unwell and now with all this shit going on, im feeling mentally unwell too. not in the psycho kind of way of course.

its a miracle i still believe in love. but i dont believe in happy ever after. ironic? i think ill stay out this long weekend. for the sake of my sanity, i will.

pray for me that i wont go insane. for i feel i will if this continues. but yet, i think i wont. afterall i have remained strong afterall these years, never letting my defences crumble and yet it seems the only one i think who would understand and who i would feel most comfortable is my blog. why? i cant seem to express how i feel sometimes. is it because i cant or is it because i dont want to? is it because im afraid they'll see the real me?

never let anyone close and they'll wont be able to hurt you. why is it im back to feeling so unhappy like last time? it has been a long time since i've felt this way. i dont like feeling moody black, i like feeling cloudy white. where im at the highest, in the clouds, to feel free once again.

the noise has stopped for now. tomorrow it will be a bitter cycle once again.

back to my assignment. i read a chapter without really reading it and my tears blinded me. the tears fall and they do not stop. i read words i do not see. now absorb i must.

ignore my rantings. i just need an outlet. we are the deciders of our own fate arent we? give me time and ill show you what im capable of. give me time and ill leave.

now back to my consumer behaviour notes. ignore me, think of it as a case of pms + sick nad. i hate feeling this way. pictures of xmas dinner soon.

i need the happy pics to cheer me up. back to my notes. 🙂


spent xmas eve with some of the bsc peeps... as thebeanmaster was busy cockbanging, he couldnt join us. as usual good clean fun @ pitstopcafe. kimoki was very nice to let us try some new up and coming snacks. thanks! 🙂

camwhoring at pitstop after all the games. lol

jen jen + nadnut

taken with 2 diff cameras. ben is acting cute! like wtf?!

ahahaa ben's gf, jenny did this. muahahahhaa!

act cute ben part 2!

chong ah and nadnut playing with santa hats. lol

the lovely couple. 6 yrs and counting leh! so sweet that u'll get diabetes knowing them. muahahaa.

camwhoring nad

wah! how come rach's santa hat can stand so tall! i want!

hahaaa. rach making sure the hat stands tall.

SUCCESS! i look like shit though.

silly colin. lol! yes, thats the colin chong in the song 😉

group pic!

after pitstopcafe, rach, colin and i headed to town for a while...

pretty tree outside of paragon. 🙂

argh i feel so fat (and short) beside slim rach chong!

we then headed to bedok 85 for a late dinner. the dinner was quite disappointing. the stingray from lovely SUCKS!

substandard carrot cake.

not bad chicken wings.

BAD BAD BAD stingray from lovely.

should have ordered from chan bbq instead. the stingray was too small considering we ordered a $10 bucks one. the sambal was pathetic, watery and it didnt 'stick'. the meat was weird tasting. not fresh! i asked for chincalok (don't know if i spelled it correctly) w/o chilli and they served with chilli. when i pointed out that it had chilli inside, the lady rebutted that its that way.

hello. i eat chincalok all the time wor. tmd. and i ordered from them b4 w/o chilli. kns. considering the number of times i have eaten at lovely, this is the first time i have had such a disappointing experience. and it was a different lady this time.

colin: its a diff fat lady this time. maybe the family went on holiday or what.
nadnut: tmd, i want real chincalok!
colin: aiyoh, the meat taste funny.
rachc: *grimace*
nadnut: eeeee. the chilli is soooo oily. i taste oil only.
colin: hahahaa seems like we're complaining a lot.
nadnut: of course! it sucks!

next time if i see the same lady, im gonna walk straight to chan bbq instead. bah. baddddd experience!