dont arrest me k?
i guess the more people i meet, or befriended, the more they are curious about what am i.
i am an alien. i came to singapore to suck all your human brains to transport back to planet ifyoubelievethisyouaresooooofuckingstupid.
yes. i am.
no lah! i’m not. ok. im mixed. im not pure chinese. im actually a half breed. (or a mongrel like STUPID MAKANGURU said. tmd u!)
i’m a mix of chinese + malay.
a chilay. and yes, the barrage of questions i had to answer since i started studying (macam never see mixed people before. tmd. i feel like im in a zoo!)
for the last time, i shall answer this so that if in the future anyone answers me this, ill pass this link to them. (if only i get a dollar everytime i get asked. damn. i could have gotten the ipod nano!)
i am mixed. chinese and malay.
the dad is chinese. the mum is malay.
i studied malay all my life. and have failed the language ever since i stepped into secondary school. i speak english. i can speak and understand very very very basic malay and i understand a teeeeeeeeeeeeeeny weeeeeeeeeeeeeny bit of chinese (self taught by watching too many chinese serials). so basically. i only speak english. not effectively bilingual or trilingual. oh well.
i have a malay name which im not telling you what it is. i DO NOT have a chinese name.
reason being. im not a boy, wont carry on the surname. sexist? shrugs. save me the trouble of writing a LONGER name during exams. im already writing an effing long name.
this is how long my name is: NADIA XXXXX XXXX XXXXX
effing long. too long for me that is.
but i dont use tat name during work. i go by Nadia Crystel. saves the trouble for everyone and save space on the namecard.
5 months ago, things changed. i needed a new start for everything in my life. i changed jobs, changed hair colour (i went jet black) and changed names.
shrugs. one of my emo times.
ok back to my race and what nots.
i am not a muslim. i know most malays are born muslims. infact i was a muslim. i think there is nothing wrong with the religion. i went for religious classes since i was 5. however i stopped when i was 11. then already, i knew that i didnt wanna to be a muslim.
however, this is not i want. i dont fully agree with the teachings. i guess i needed to find my own religion and what i believe in.
i dont wanna be a muslim who eats non halal food and dont prays. thats the greatest insult to the religion.
i guess im a free thinker. i believe in god but which religion, im still slowly seeking my path.
my mum knows about my decision. though she is immensely disappointed in me, she agrees that she wants me to fully embrace the religion than make a mockery of it.
i believe that everyone should do that. believe in your religion. dont mock it by saying your a XXXX and yet you eat beef/pork/whatnots.
but afterall, that is my own personal opinion.
so thats it.
im not a muslim due to personal choice. but who knows in the future? as im still seeking who i am and who i believe in.
this is all after all about myself and what i believe in. i hope no one would be offended by this.
there you go.
told you i was an alien.