Archive for 2006
look how big it is!
Sunday, December 31st, 2006thebeanmaster had to play at the artshouse today and he was lugging his electric bass around while out with me. look how big and tall it is! and yes, look how short i am. it was so bloody irritating. everyone was avoiding him and his stuff that they kept banging into me. BAH!
another one of my word teeshirts. this one says ‘dont fall for my sweet talk’. LOL! and oh yes, i absolutely enjoyed ‘night at the museum’. go watch! you’ll be laughing away!
that thing about the grouchy cat…
Saturday, December 30th, 2006things that make you smile..
the sight of your grouchy kitty squeezing himself into your shoebox. awwwww.
he looks so grouchy and yet so cute. lol!
the tears fall and they do not stop…
Friday, December 29th, 2006i’ve been having the stress migraine since evening. its an old condition of mine. pills dont work, nothing works till the stress is over. the pain is so intense that i feel like banging my head at the wall. don’t worry i wont. it doesnt work.
things at home aint pleasant right now. i hate being at home sometimes. i tell myself to persevere but i wonder how long can i take it. it has been years now.
some people go on and on about their sad lot in life. i will not be one of them. i don’t believe in accepting my fate. i believe in changing it. to me, there will always be people worse off than yourself and if they are not complaining, who are we to complain? give me time and things will change. i promise you that. only me myself can change things. complaining will not change anything. actions speaks louder than words. no one can help yourself but you.
karma baby. i will make sure everyone gets what they deserve.
im trying to study at home but the noise is getting to me, it really doesnt help that im having a migraine. i try to stop the tears but yet they fall. i must continue to save.
it doesnt help that im feeling physically unwell and now with all this shit going on, im feeling mentally unwell too. not in the psycho kind of way of course.
its a miracle i still believe in love. but i dont believe in happy ever after. ironic? i think ill stay out this long weekend. for the sake of my sanity, i will.
pray for me that i wont go insane. for i feel i will if this continues. but yet, i think i wont. afterall i have remained strong afterall these years, never letting my defences crumble and yet it seems the only one i think who would understand and who i would feel most comfortable is my blog. why? i cant seem to express how i feel sometimes. is it because i cant or is it because i dont want to? is it because im afraid they’ll see the real me?
never let anyone close and they’ll wont be able to hurt you. why is it im back to feeling so unhappy like last time? it has been a long time since i’ve felt this way. i dont like feeling moody black, i like feeling cloudy white. where im at the highest, in the clouds, to feel free once again.
the noise has stopped for now. tomorrow it will be a bitter cycle once again.
back to my assignment. i read a chapter without really reading it and my tears blinded me. the tears fall and they do not stop. i read words i do not see. now absorb i must.
ignore my rantings. i just need an outlet. we are the deciders of our own fate arent we? give me time and ill show you what im capable of. give me time and ill leave.
now back to my consumer behaviour notes. ignore me, think of it as a case of pms + sick nad. i hate feeling this way. pictures of xmas dinner soon.
i need the happy pics to cheer me up. back to my notes. 
xmas eve…
Thursday, December 28th, 2006spent xmas eve with some of the bsc peeps… as thebeanmaster was busy cockbanging, he couldnt join us. as usual good clean fun @ pitstopcafe. kimoki was very nice to let us try some new up and coming snacks. thanks!
camwhoring at pitstop after all the games. lol
jen jen + nadnut
taken with 2 diff cameras. ben is acting cute! like wtf?!
ahahaa ben’s gf, jenny did this. muahahahhaa!
act cute ben part 2!
chong ah and nadnut playing with santa hats. lol
the lovely couple. 6 yrs and counting leh! so sweet that u’ll get diabetes knowing them. muahahaa.
camwhoring nad
wah! how come rach’s santa hat can stand so tall! i want!
hahaaa. rach making sure the hat stands tall.
SUCCESS! i look like shit though.
silly colin. lol! yes, thats the colin chong in the song 
group pic!
after pitstopcafe, rach, colin and i headed to town for a while…
pretty tree outside of paragon.
argh i feel so fat (and short) beside slim rach chong!
we then headed to bedok 85 for a late dinner. the dinner was quite disappointing. the stingray from lovely SUCKS!
substandard carrot cake.
not bad chicken wings.
BAD BAD BAD stingray from lovely.
should have ordered from chan bbq instead. the stingray was too small considering we ordered a $10 bucks one. the sambal was pathetic, watery and it didnt ‘stick’. the meat was weird tasting. not fresh! i asked for chincalok (don’t know if i spelled it correctly) w/o chilli and they served with chilli. when i pointed out that it had chilli inside, the lady rebutted that its that way.
hello. i eat chincalok all the time wor. tmd. and i ordered from them b4 w/o chilli. kns. considering the number of times i have eaten at lovely, this is the first time i have had such a disappointing experience. and it was a different lady this time.
colin: its a diff fat lady this time. maybe the family went on holiday or what.
nadnut: tmd, i want real chincalok!
colin: aiyoh, the meat taste funny.
rachc: *grimace*
nadnut: eeeee. the chilli is soooo oily. i taste oil only.
colin: hahahaa seems like we’re complaining a lot.
nadnut: of course! it sucks!
next time if i see the same lady, im gonna walk straight to chan bbq instead. bah. baddddd experience!
that thing about the french restaurant..
Thursday, December 28th, 2006a week ago, some of us had dinner at this restaurant located near beauty world. the ambience was nice, service was good, company was hilarious.. unfortunately the dinner portions were tiny! 
quite pathetic actually. i had a tiny steak and a mocktail and it amounted to fifty buckaroos. for the same amount, i could have eaten at black angus with a much bigger steak!
anyway, this will be mainly a pictorial entry. so enjoy the pics and video.
my pathetic steak.
wasn’t bloody enough for me. *pun intended*
aloe vera’s veal. looks yummy!
akk’s and naiveguy’s lamb chops play a long!
the torchlight..
check out the electronic pepper shaker/grinder/whatever u call it. it was my first time seeing one!
the ladies decided to try the mocktail after reading the interesting description..
where’s the snowcap?! a bit too sour for me.
barffie’s & naiveguy’s bomba alaska. tiny version.
its no wonder i looked so depressed after reaching home. still hungry. lol!
that thing about feeling sick…
Wednesday, December 27th, 2006i should have known… yesterday the telltale symptoms were there. the migraine, the slight sore throat. but yet, i met up with my group members (more about them next time, they are a hilarious bunch!) to discuss on our project. (yes the deadline draws nearer. the horror!)
got caught in the rain a teeny weeny bit and it worsened things… i started sneezing like mad in the car. i took 2 panadols and hoped that everything would be better today.
came to work and the unmistakable feeling was there. the horrible sore throat, the fever, the drowsy feeling and the muscle aches. i just know it. i must have caught a cold. or even the damn flu.
took porridge and liangteh (which i abso-fucking-lutely hate) and slept away during my lunch time. doesnt help that the noise (check previous entry) was getting louder and louder.
its ironic that i feel even worst than anytime during my operation and recovery period. like wtf?!?! and there i was thinking i was quite strong to be able to recover so fast. pride b4 a fall nadia.
updates about the gums. they still ache these days especially when food particles get stucked in there and people give me weird stares when they see me in the washroom with a syringe. i am not a drug addict lor!
yes i owe a lot of updates. xmas dinner and all. plus pictures are with me. lol after the deadly project (and virus) hor?
its amazing how vulnerable i feel when my immune system is down, considering the fact i do not usually let myself feel this way. its cliché i know, but all i want is chicken soup and lotsa sleep right now.
i had weird dreams these not feeling well days. i hate having nightmares, the feeling of being chased, hunted and waking up and feeling that tingling feeling on your skin, feeling the bed empty without my dearest cat to cuddle with. argh. yes, vulnerable i said.
i am unsure now about my future. from what we have discussed, it seems that things may not work out this way afterall. yes, blame the govt we shall. 
. but could i bear to leave alone? i guess in january when a dear friend returns, ill be enlightened?
i sincerely hope so.
even though i hate visits to the doctor, i like the medicinal smell in the clinic, infact i like the book smell in bookshops and libraries too. to think of all the disgusting pills ill have to take later, is making me grimace.
i found this phrase in the iPod webbie ‘Santa rocks, he’s using an iPod’. lol.
part 3 of the project to be done b4 saturday. argh. the question looks damn cheem. looks like it’ll be another day with the books.
thebeanmaster has returned from his cock-banging trip. im gonna try psycho him to do a 10 days version. muahahaahahaa.
i have this nagging feeling bothering me. i seem to have forgotten something important, what can it be? i cant recall.
suddenly i have this craving to cook. don’t ask me what. i don’t know man.
if i could have this special ability right now, i’ll mute everyone present in the room right now. (see previous entry). its raining again. cats and dogs. argh. i hate the feeling of my pants/jeans + shoes/heels/wedges wet and soggy. did i mention the time that i got so fed up with the weather that i wore boots the next day so that my toes would remain dry? it was bloody hell hot the damn f**king day. sibeh suay.
tiger would be back on 1 feb… and mrkennychan (see archives) would be leaving on that very day to perth. coincidence? lol. swop a makan kaki for a bf. muahahahaaa. thebeanmaster better stay put here man else ill whack him.
i suddenly have this impulse to dress up one of these days and go for a good dinner. oooh did i mention that i bought tickets for phantom of the opera? =D. wheeeeeeeeeeeee! broke lady here though.
i suddenly have this urge to have a chalet and bbq. i miss having bbqs. but definitely not now with the dreadful weather. i had the most disgusting barbequed stingray from bedok 85 recently. yuck. the sambal was disgusting and the meat was horrible. eck.
i must remember to buy stuff this weekend for my first ever flog exchange! so exciting!
i guess feeling sick = vulnerable = feeling sick = having weird urges = feeling sick = typing long posts with incoherent thoughts?
i shall stop here now before i bore you to death. yawns. pics soon.
Protected: argh argh argh!
Tuesday, December 26th, 2006thebeanmaster sings…
Monday, December 25th, 2006a christmas song using our names.. if u were wondering why he ‘oops’ after ‘colin chong’… hahaa. its because.. the surname chong belongs to colin’s gf, not his.
